Let Go And Let God Heal You - It's Time

I cannot seem to shake what Iyanla said to Evelyn Lozada, "On Fix My Life" where she talked about the deep wounds inside a little girl who grows up without a proper relationship with her father. That I have sown so much anger into the atmosphere because I was in so much pain myself that I reaped violence at the hands of violent angry people. Hurt people will hurt people not always intentionally many do it subconsciously just because they are hurting, as somewhat of an automatic response or perhaps a defensive mechanism. Suddenly I had tears like raindrops looking at what I had become my worst fear had come upon like the plague. I saw myself clearly, the girl inside the woman was wounded because her daddy left her when she was ten and even before then his presence had never been consistent. I know now that I loved my daddy and my daddy loved me but those were the realities of what our relationship was, it was broken and never had fully healed. Therefore I realized that I didn't know what love was supposed look like, feel like or be like because hadn't seen it for myself. I was lost in that way and in my need for love and constant validation, that I made horrible decisions concerning men. I was caught up in the cycle of abuse because I had been looking for love in all wrong places.